what the hell happened after college?
i remember in high school i was excited about my plans in college and after. i thought i had it all figured out. i was going to graduate college with honors, go to law school, become an amazing lawyer/potential author.
but that didn’t happen. in fact, i did one semester in criminal justice, realized everything was corrupt, and switched to be an english major.
i know that was the stupidest decision i could’ve made, but i loved reading and english classes growing up. i thought “maybe i could be an author.” i am, unfortunately, not an author… yet. I did an internship writing for a local music company, i did a work study for the university i attended(something within the field i wanted to pursue), I applied everywhere, i had amazing recommendations, i did everything right. and yet, i am not doing anything remotely close to my major. it’s been a year and i haven’t found anything yet.
i’m still a server. and a brunch bartender. i don’t even get to make drinks besides mimosas and bloody mary’s. how embarassing is that?
i did everything right, how come i’m not succeeding like people who did far less than i did. it genuinely blows.
but what if life had gone different and i had gotten the career i wanted? i don’t think i’d like it. i wouldn’t had made friends with new people who genuinely want to see me succeed. i wouldn’t have met my boyfriend, my very amazing, kind, smart boyfriend.
i don’t think i’d like that life any better.
i mean, now i’m growing at a pace that makes me think about what i genuinely want to do with my life. i never got a chance to just slow down. i think everyone should get that opportunity before it’s too late.
i know i’m just babbling about my life, but i’m happy i got to slow down to realize what i wanted because i never really knew what i wanted. i just wanted to make everyone else happy instead of myself.
all i’m saying is that my life is going at a slower pace than i hoped for awhile ago, but it’s going in a direction that pushed me to find what i wanted to do with my life.
i think taking your time is okay, i don’t think we all need to get to our destination as soon as possible. and that’s fine. it’ll be fine.